Luck

I’m trying to stop myself from writing a note. A little superstitious part of me wants to jot down my most pressing desire right now, then burn it and send it out into the universe—whatever that means.

I won’t do it.  Nope.  Not going to.

I’m not a religious sort, but I’m a human animal, so I can’t help but wrestle with superstition, thoughts about luck, and occasionally cook up stupid little luck dance rituals that Teutonic tribes did millenia ago.

No.  Not going to do it.  Really, really want to though.

A deep little human animal part of me suspects that I’ve already reached my luck quota this year.  I shouldn’t even dare to ask for anything more, because oh hell, I’m lucky. My family recovered from a devastating accident. I’m beyond lucky.

But I want a little luck, which is kind of against everything I stand for.

I’m a disgusting product of the Protestant work ethic. Luck shouldn’t factor into career advancement, because success should be a product of skill, dedication, and talent. I believe hard work and skill should speak for themselves and be instantly recognizable.  I’m terrible at self-promotion and bragging, because I believe that they’re not necessary.  Good work is good work, should be instantly recognizable, and that alone is enough to garner praise.  Any time spent promoting and bragging is time that could have been spent furthering honing a craft.  

This is no longer a valid belief in the arts.  I recognize that.

F*ck.

I’d like a little luck today.  I’m embarrassed about that.  I’ve had so much.

-TLOTH

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  1. eebees said: For the record, I think there is absolutely nothing wrong with expressing what you want. Whether it is to the Universe or your lover. I mean, how else are they to know otherwise?
  2. shovelbum said: well, you have the rest of us wishing lots of luck for you, so that must count for something :) I feel you about the work ethic thing, it’s frustrating.
  3. becomingbrina said: why not go for it? sometimes desires come to fruition through hard work, but sometimes you need a little push from the universe. if nothing else, lighting things on fire is entertaining.
  4. receiver said: In the interests of luck: If i had any, and could grant you some, I would; I did wear my four leaf clover drawers today, lucky you (and everyone else who reads this, which means, like, 7k people); I forgot my lunch—oops, there goes that; GOOD LUCK!
  5. sallydoodle said: GOOD LUCK!!!! may lucky horseshoes shoot out of a unicorn’s ass in your direction.
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